Chicken soup for the soul A.K.A Hooray!

Hi,

I think that I, with a lot of support, have come a looooooonng way…

My therapist is away in Asia until May but I sent her an e-mail update on my recovery process yesterday.

Although it would be tempting to sit back and have a therapy break and not to keep pushing the pesky rituals away (over a metaphorical cliff!) I know that no progress is made by inactivity so I’m happy to say that I’ve kept on marching and killing off or diminishing habits and I’ve been reading self help books to top up the positive and encouaging messages that normally come from her during our sessions.

To heal you have to face your fears. It’s the only way.

I realised as I wrote the e-mail to her that things that had seemed 100% impossible to overcome two years ago, one year ago, even six weeks ago, have been overcome. I have the power over them once more. Thank God.

Some of the restrictions that I thought were mine forever are no more, some of the chains still need some work before they can be broken.

In OCD terms I had a hand washing ritual.

A year ago I could use one bar of soap in a twenty four hour period. I had to to feel “safe” BUT the ritual reinforces the message to the brain that the washes actually needed to occur for me to be safe.

Today, one bar of soap can last for ten days, that’s with me using it like someone almost without OCD would do. I still soap three times each wash…work in progress…but I no longer feel that my life is being washed away.

So, despite the protests of that little voice of doubt in my darkest hours there is light at the end of the proverbial tunnel and the freedom that ritual busting has given me means that I can invest more of my brain time and energy in my writing and creativity, not all consuming fear.

This week I’ll be editing. BTW I have pre-orders for my book out 31st March on Amazon. THAT’S AMAZING to me. Of all the books in all the world people not only choose to buy or borrow mine but to pre-order too.

Sorry to gush but I am so grateful for the happy surprises that happen. Remember, a year ago where I am now seemed impossible – instead of “I’d love to write for a living.” “I DO write for a living.”

Have a great week

Joanne

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About Joanne Hayle

I am Joanne Hayle, I love writing. It is the best way to express myself. www.joannehayle.co.uk is my website which links to here. I have O.C.D and P.T.S.D. This site is a testament to the fact that with expert help what can feel like the end of the world, isn't. THANK GOD!! I have books on Amazon, have been included in poetry anthologies and children's books plus a really lovely amount of freelance work. You can also see my children's stories for free on www.childrens-stories.net.

Posted on March 1, 2015, in advice, chicken soup for the soul, help, inspiration, Mental health and tagged , , , , , , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. 1 Comment.

  1. Oh! I am going to have to settle down and do something about my writing, fears! of putting myself out there.

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